Constant transition

It seems that right when we get into a groove, life sends us a curve ball.

Jesus continually asks me simple questions about the foundations of life. What are you meant for? What am I telling you? What have I already spoken?

So here is my life, keeping up with the bills is impossible - like so many people out there, my knee surgery is on april 2nd, my sister is back in california - right when I finally feel like we are connecting, and God is moving me into a new season of revelation of Him through the bible.

In the midst of what should be stressful time of looking at the life I have created for myself with the Lord and beginning to wonder if I have failed, if I shouldn't be out here... Time to go home.. pack up... get a "real" job; I realize that God has not changed, His words have not changed, and His plans for me are now truer then ever.

So, then..Who will I choose to follow? My fear, my failure, my hopes, my dreams, or God and His perfect plans for my life?

...... I'll let you in on what I am thinking...... I am not going to go back to the world of depending on my own two hands, my conjured up decisions and opinions. It is useless to revert back to the lie of independence that broke my life in the first place.

Pray that I can hold true to all that the Lord has for me, especially when the storms of life try and push me in other directions.