Wooohoo!!

Well we just finished another DTS. We actually just finished sending them off at 4 am! The spring quarter coming next brings with it some time of reflection, resting, and the occasional staff movie night. But for me this time is going to be some what of a mystery.

This Thursday is operation day. I am unsure of what, when, how long, or even where, that will look like. Details will come a little later. As for my life... God has blessed me with what I like to call, "The Gravy Train Life," First off I live in Hawaii, cramped 5 people in a bedroom yes.. but Hawaii: second, He pays for all my bills on time, sometimes on the day of, but they are paid all the same: Third, God has given me the truth, there is only one point to life and that is to bring Him glory through living in right relationship with Him and I can do that in a hospital bed in any amount of pain or anguish.

I like to be very blunt when I can, so here it goes; God sent Himself to earth to die a horrific death, proving His benevolent love that gives me what I need not necessarily what I want, the least I can do is not complain.

So here is my little motto on the eve of occasions such as these, "Everyday is a holiday and every meal a banquet." In the face of great suffering and opposition let us never forget that death hath no sting for those who are in Christ Jesus.

Constant transition

It seems that right when we get into a groove, life sends us a curve ball.

Jesus continually asks me simple questions about the foundations of life. What are you meant for? What am I telling you? What have I already spoken?

So here is my life, keeping up with the bills is impossible - like so many people out there, my knee surgery is on april 2nd, my sister is back in california - right when I finally feel like we are connecting, and God is moving me into a new season of revelation of Him through the bible.

In the midst of what should be stressful time of looking at the life I have created for myself with the Lord and beginning to wonder if I have failed, if I shouldn't be out here... Time to go home.. pack up... get a "real" job; I realize that God has not changed, His words have not changed, and His plans for me are now truer then ever.

So, then..Who will I choose to follow? My fear, my failure, my hopes, my dreams, or God and His perfect plans for my life?

...... I'll let you in on what I am thinking...... I am not going to go back to the world of depending on my own two hands, my conjured up decisions and opinions. It is useless to revert back to the lie of independence that broke my life in the first place.

Pray that I can hold true to all that the Lord has for me, especially when the storms of life try and push me in other directions.